Why is it that...?

... when you start focusing on food, you start having eating issues?

For some reason, it seems like all of the in-class discussion about food, nutrition, eating restrictions and future diets has hit me right in the heart(-burn region). What is it about talking about food that makes it such a disaster?

I've noticed this in the past: whenever I'd start a diet, or I'd talk to a doctor (or even a friend) about food and eating, I would end up with heartburn, over-fullness/bloatedness, rapid weight gains and a lot of self-disgust. Well, maybe the severity of the up-coming procedure is in my head, but I'm having difficulty sleeping through the night, and am feeling a lot of discomfort throughout the day. Not great!

I'm going to have to start paying better attention to my food intake - without paying too much attention to it. I'm a freakin' head case...

-sd